I’m thinking about getting electro-convulsive therapy. Apparently it’s quite an ordeal, what with the full anesthesia every two days for a month. On the other hand, it’s only done once, and then you’re done with it, pretty much. And if it works, well great. And it’s a month away from work. (Work that I can barely handle right now.) If my new psychiatrist doesn’t have some really compelling medication options on the table, I’ll probably be getting it soon.
Archive for May, 2009
Hello, world!
Welcome to my online world! You know, I’ve thought a lot about building my own world. Like, you know, a personal vision of a fantasy world of some sort that’s immersive and expansive and provides an extended analogy to my psyche and whatnot. I guess I haven’t gotten crazy enough and single-minded enough to pursue such a vision yet. I’ve thought about doing such a world in a text-based environment, like a MUD, and in a graphical environment. The latter would require more tools (like a 3d modeler) and more time per unit of world, but be more immersive. (And more primitive, considering my lack of artisticalish skilz.)
I’ve found the main limitation in pursuing such a dream is the lack of inspiration. I don’t really have many ideas for worlds that are much different than our own, dull, dreary, miserable, dissatisfying world to draw upon. I’m not creative in that way. If I were, I would definitely have been creating such a world and wouldn’t be here now posting. I’m a very practical person. More interested in science than art. More interested in programming languages than programs.
