Wow, it’s really been a while since I’ve touched this site, huh? I’ve been having a really bad day, and thought it might make some interesting reading. That association might give you a clue to my personality.
Friday night I tried to get my perscription for antidepressants refilled. My insurance refused to pay. My doctor, last appointment, raised my dose, and told me to just use up the remaining pills in my current bottle and then refill with the new perscription. Well, that used up the bottle a lot quicker than my insurance company approved of. They wouldn’t refill the prescription until two days later. And I was out of pills. I could have paid three times the price, $300, to get them then. Of course, I couldn’t just buy two or three pills to get me through to Monday, since that wasn’t prescribed for me.
Saturday night I had a hell of a time getting to sleep. And during the night, I had two of the worst nightmares I can remember for years. Horror movie kind of nightmares. (I have been watching a lot of those lately.) Not actually traumatic, but extremely disturbing.
But the worst part is that I still feel like I’m in one of those nightmares. No hallucinations or anything really weird, but exactly that same atmosphere of anxious dread, of looming evil and disaster. I feel like Cthulhu is camped out outside my door. I feel like I’m about to go insane.
I really fucking hate my insurance company. Everyone, really. I’d like to kill myself, honestly. (Comments exhorting me not to kill myself will be promptly deleted.)
I’m learning Isabelle. I might do a post on it at some point if I have something interesting. I’m thinking about making it the logical basis of the algebra editor I’ve talked about previously. Which is more work than I was thinking in the beginning, but less work than what I had been going to do.
