I remind myself of that occasionally. But it sure does feel empty around here.*

*Because I don’t post. But still.

Good that you know vaguely where you need to go; this forum is an avenue, anyway, for not being so alone.

I’m not hopeless. Just really unstable. (”Sick” == being too anxious to go out and by catfood, among a few other things.) And frustrated. And, except for my therapist, alone. But I think I know vaguely where I need to go from here.

Both states of being are normal and natural. I myself try not to fight against the imbalanced ones, except to see that there’s an imbalance and try to correct it.

This may well make little sense (and sound preachy), but then I’m not sure what kind of sickness you’re referring to.

Hard to say. Lamentations? Cries for consolation? I guess there’s a question in there: why is it that there’s this place where you get stuck when you’re unhealthy like me, where it’s hard to get better because you don’t have any support, and impossible to find support because you’re sick. Why did there have to be that Catch-22 there? Why couldn’t things be less cruel?

Oops. Still rhetorical. Well, I tried.

To get concrete, I guess I’m just saying that I don’t see how I could ever get into balance enough from where I am now to find people like I’m looking for. It’s disheartening. But that’s not really relevant to this blog unless I get more into the background of it all, which I’m not inclined to do.

Because you’re out of balance in those cases.