I hate sleep
This post is extremely boring. You were warned.
This is the second night in two weeks that I didn’t sleep at all because of restlessness. I didn’t take my sleeping pills either time, but I’m still concerned. The first time, I was staying up programming, and felt progressively worse the closer it got to 7 AM. I decided I had to sleep, and skipped work. Last night, I was once again programming (though I spent a lot of that time reading the documentation on OpenGL and not actually writing code), but this time I didn’t feel quite as tired by the time 7 AM came rolling around. I think it’s because I had been getting consistently good sleep for several days, which wasn’t the case the first time. I took my meds around 6:30 AM so that my stimulant bupropion wouldn’t wear off and leave me ready to fall asleep standing up, and I’ve had plenty of caffeine today. I feel quite sleepy, and not extremely sharp, but otherwise fine.
I worry that the meds are making me sleep longer than I need, like 9 hours instead of 7.5, and so I’m actually getting ahead on sleep and so not able to fall asleep in any reasonable time-frame. After tonight (in which I plan to sleep 10 hours) I think I’ll try limiting myself to 7.5 for a while. And getting to bed at a more consistent time, of course. I’ve been pretty bad about that, but then it’s been a long time since I’ve had this much energy to control. I hope the anxiety wears off. Maybe it will with consistent sleep for a couple weeks. I can’t remember the last time I’ve had consistent sleep for two solid weeks.
