long period of apathy. Suddenly, posting again!
I haven’t been posting because a wave of apathy has overtaken me. My life feels meaningless and empty nowadays. The only bright spot has been hanging out with a certain new friend of mine, but even that doesn’t consistently keep me up (since she’s a pretty busy person). I could probably figure out how to change my brain either through cognitive therapy or medication (for ADD, probably) to get rid of this feeling, but that raises issues of the continuity of personal identity through change that make me feel all squicky.
So maybe if I try to start posting again it’ll help me some. I have like a million drafts, but everything I’ve written sounds so naive and unpolished, and it’s on such heavy material that I feel incredibly unqualified to post it. Maybe I should just say to hell with it and click “publish” after an hour of revision, no matter what the state at that point, and let the magic of the internets point out the error in my ways. It’s a thought.
